Home schooling my son has never been something I thought I would do. I don't think I have the patience. My 6 year old son, however, has had a really tough time at school. He has gone to a small Montessori charter school since pre-school. His teacher would try and work on his pencil grip and work with him on his letter sounds. He could never get either. Then at mid-year in kindergarten, his teacher thought that we should put him in full time (8:30-3:30). She thought he needed more time to work on his letter sounds and be better prepared for first grade. Against my intuition, we paid the $500 dollars a month to "get him better prepared" for first grade. Looking back, I wish I hadn't done it.
From the beginning, he hasn't wanted to go to school. He would cling on to me, cry and refuse to go to school. Eventually though, he went to school without much convincing. Maybe he just gave up. Looking back, I am heartbroken.
Now, in first grade, he has refused to hold his pencil "the right way" and learn his letters. I know eventually he will read. But this time I am going to do what my intuition tells me. I am bringing him home, letting him de-stress, have some fun digging in the dirt, learn some things and see what comes of this. So, with happiness and optimism he is coming home to heal a bit.